A Stone In Your Life

 11/12/2022

"This is the day that Yahuah has made, so let us rejoice and be glad in it."

I am up early on Shabbat. Yesterday was the 4 year anniversary of my Mamaw's death. Today is the 4 year anniversary of Brandon's accident. Some things happened yesterday. I didn't write them down and so now I am having trouble remembering. One thing I do remember is that I got an email from Johnathon Torres. I had insurance with them briefly in 2018. He was emailing me to see if I had an insurance need. It was strange because that was the year Mamaw and Brandon passed away. Yesterday, I did bring it up to Candice about Mamaw passing away. Three days before she passed she said my dad called her and said he was coming to pick her up. My uncle kept telling her that my dad was dead and he didn't call her. She kept saying he did and he was coming to pick her up. Then 3 days later, she passed. I got emotional when I thought about her. I think about her a lot, especially lately. I have been feeling down the past few days and maybe this is why. During this time of the year, all the way to Thanksgiving is an emotional time. After Brandon passed, we left the hospital and went to eat at Golden Coral and it was $222. To me, 222 means heavenly messengers are with me. 

A verse was given to me this morning. It's the verse that Yahuah gave me years ago when I first started my walk. Psalm 46:10. Be still and know that He is Yahuah. The song started playing in my head by Steven Curtis Chapman called Be still and know. Years ago, after I received the verse Psalm 46:10, I left the house and went to Walmart and this song was playing in Walmart. That was confirmation for me. 

Now I am sitting here, just writing to try to get out all the emotions that I have inside. About this time is when I received the call from Drew that Brandon had been hit by a car. I remember it all like it was yesterday. I remember when I first saw Brandon, he was on a stretcher and he came around the corner in the hallway and his arm was up in the air. He didn't have a shirt on. He had a patch over his eye and I could see blood. 

Anyway, today is Shabbat and a time for rejoicing. I just praise Yah that He shows us signs that He is with us. Today's verse of the day is: 

He will stand and shepherd His flock...and they will live securely, for then His greatness will reach to the ends of the earth. And He will be their peace. Micah 5:4,5

One thing I have to remember that I heard yesterday is: Those who don't remember the past are doomed to repeat it. 

Also another quote: Watch your actions for they become your character, and watch your character for it becomes your destiny. 

This is very true. As I heard this, I was thinking about how what we think is where it starts. What we are thinking about will determine our actions. So we must first ask Yahuah to guard our thoughts and our mind. To renew our mind and create in us a clean heart. The two go together. To renew our mind is to constantly be on guard and cast out anything that isn't of the Father. Bitterness can grow in an environment that is not being cleansed constantly. Kind of like mold and mildew. It starts as a little patch on the wall but if not taken care of it quickly takes over the whole wall. Then you can no longer stay in the house and it has to be burned according to Scripture. That can happen to us. Scripture says that whoever does not remain in the Vine and whoever does not produce fruit is cut off and cast into the fire. He who produces fruit, Yah blesses with more because Scripture says that the one that produces good fruit is pruned. We prune trees so they will produce more fruit. Also you prune a tree to retain a certain shape. It makes the tree easier to manage and get fruit from. That's what I pray the Father does for me and those in my life. That we produce fruit and be worthy of His pruning.