The number 106

 11/15/2022

I have been seeing the number 106 lately. So much so that I searched out the meaning a day or two ago. 106 in Hebrew is Egroph. It means a fist. I remember a year or so ago, probably more, Drew got the words the old fist of reign is out and the new fist is in. Yesterday I was in the Kroger parking lot and I went to load my groceries and noticed the car beside me was from Arkansas and the tag number was 721. Then I look over and saw another cartag and it was TET1656. Tet of course if the earth, the basket, a thing in which things are contained. It also represents the woman's womb. Here Tet would apply to the earth. 1656 means to be rained upon.   msc (גסהמ GShM) AC: Rain CO: Rain AB: ?: [from: ms- skies as the place of rain] (eng: gush)

V) msc (גסהמ GShM) - Rain: KJV (1): (vf: Hiphil, Pual) rain - Strongs: H1652 (גָּשַׁם)

N^m) msc (גסהמ GShM) - I. Rain: II. Body:[Unknown connection to rootAramaic only] KJV (40): rain, shower, body - Strongs: H1653 (גֶּשֶׁם), H1655 (גְּשֵׁם)

g^m) msfc (גוסהמ GWShM) - Rained: KJV (1): rained - Strongs: H1656 (גֹּשֶׁם)

The greek for 721 is a lamb and the Hebrew is an inhabitant of Arvad. I definitely think the greek would be more fitting. I'm not really sure how all this goes together but it starts with a new fist of reign and then rain coming upon the earth and it actually says gushing. I believe Yahuah will fill in the pieces when He sees fit.

I have been seeing 106 and this morning after Drew left, I picked up the purple Bible Sterling gave me. It's a women's devotional Bible and I opened to where the bookmark was. It was on Psalm 41 and 42. I started smiling because it's a Psalm I love and I sing. We used to sing it at congregation. "As the deer panteth for the water so my soul longs after You." I read Psalm 41 and 42. I felt it was for me this morning. Psalm 41 is about the "Suffering and Blessing of the Set Apart."  A Psalm of Dawid when he was suffering on his sickbed. Psalm 42 is Dawid, "Yearning for Yahuah in the midst of distress." Also while I was reading it I noticed Psalm 41:4- I said, "Yahuah, be merciful to me; Heal my soul, for I have sinned against You." Then I read in Psalm 42 throughout the whole thing it talks about the soul. It talks about the soul being cast down and disquieted within him. He tells his soul in verse 5 to "Hope in Yahuah", and then he while he's literally speaking to his soul and telling his soul to Hope in Yahuah, he says while you are hoping in Yahuah, I shall yet praise Him for the help of His Countenance. Dawid knows where his help comes from so he's waiting on Yahuah and literally talking to his self and his soul and saying to Hope in Yahuah. I researched the Hebrew word used here for YET. It is Strong's 5750, Ode. It means to: do (אהד AhD) AC: Repeat CO: ? AB: Witness: The pictograph o is a picture of the eye, the d is a picture of the door. Combined these mean "see the door". As coming to a tent a tent of meeting and entering in. A place, time or event that is repeated again and again.

It is something that is repeated again and again. This means it's an action we have to do. The words, "Yet praise Him" here mean to never stop. To repeatedly tell yourself and your soul to Hope in Him and Praise Him. It's an action, it's something we have to do. 

Another thing that caught my attention this morning after I read Psalm 41 and 42. I looked down and saw the devotion for the day and it was Day 106: When a Friend Betrays You. Psalm 41:1-11. (411-Information) I woke up this morning feeling betrayed from yesterday. In the devotional, it talks about Dawid's familiar friend that he ate bread with, betraying him. Also how Judas betrayed Yahshua. We are always going to have those around us that betray us but this devotional says that we are to pray for those who persecute us and forgive them because we were first forgiven. We can also never forget that our Adon stands with us and will not abandon us. He is a "friend who sticks closer than a brother." (Prov. 18:24) 

At the end of the devotional they offer a time of release. Prayer: Be honest before Yahuah about a time of betrayal that still feels like a "kick in the gut." Release forgiveness toward the one who hurt you so deeply and rejoice that you are not alone or abandoned in Mashiach. 

I was just hurt deeply and betrayed yesterday by Drew. It was still so fresh this morning and I was struggling. I only read this Bible because I didn't want to watch a sermon. I said, no instead of watching a sermon, I'm going to read the Bible. So I came in here and opened it to that and it just happened to be on Psalm 41 and 42 which I can relate to right now. Then devotional day 106. I have been repeatedly seeing that number. So I knew this message was for me from the Father. I prayed the prayer at the end and I released the forgiveness, anger, hurt and asked Yahshua to stitch up my soul wound as only he can. I realized I have alot of wounds that need healing. I feel numb and like I have no joy inside. I have just been hurt so much after hoping again that I have just given up all together is what it feels like. I feel like a robot just here to serve. I am not here to be talked to or sought after, desired, no just to serve. Not to be noticed. I feel like I am fading away. I don't even know who I am anymore. I am just invisible and in the background. Most days I wonder what my purpose is. I have even quit confiding in Candice about what the Father is showing me, I have no desire to see anyone or go anywhere. Everyday just feels like a task. I just can't wait for it to be over so I can go to sleep. I feel like I am sinking into a depression that I have no idea how to get out of. Anyway, I have alot of healing to do. Alot of soul searching to do, alot of soul healing to do. Yah help me on this journey.