A Stone In Your Life

 5/13/2021

I couldn't sleep so I came inside to watch YouTube. The video I was watching had 411 in it. I prayed and asked Yahuah what information I was going to receive. Right after that, I paused the video at 19:19. 1919 in Hebrew is Hadassah, Myrtle or Queen Esther. Esther 4:14 is a verse I have received for many years. It was on the wall  in the room we stayed in at Jenny's house in Alabama with Brandon at UAB. Esther 4:14 Maybe you were born for such a time as this. 1919 also has to do with Nourishment. The Hebrew word Dad is H1919. Dalet, Dalet represents breasts hanging. You give milk or life to children with you breasts. It's a symbol of life. Queen Esther was nourished and brought up by Yahuah through certain people like her uncle and later the people of the king's court and then the king. She was born to intercede for her people and save them. Yahuah told her, "You were born for such a time as this." 

This is the message that I received before I even got really sick this last time before finding the chiropractor. I am receiving it again. I think Yahuah is amazing in how He interacts with His people. There's an intimacy and you know that you are the only one He's conversating with at the moment which is in itself a miraculous thing. He longs for us to turn to Him as Queen Esther did and literally trust Him with our lives. I've been praying alot for healing once again, in more than one way. Emotionally, spiritually and physically I need healing. I'm not sure why I am where I am right now, in need of healing once again. I know that I have to lean on Yahuah and my need for Him will never change. I have been neglecting every relationship that I have, just because one isn't going the way I think it should. That is the work of the enemy and it is stealing my joy. I'm forgetting what life is about and I'm missing the mark. 

There are so many things in this life to enjoy and that should bring us joy. He created everything around us for our joy. We are supposed to have a joy deep down that no one can take because it comes from His Ruach living inside us. I find myself asking alot, why don't I have that joy? Fear runs alot of my life and I battle inside and become divided. Reading the book, The divided soul literally describes how I feel right now. I have been reciting the verse, "A house divided cannot stand." That can mean your literal house and your body. I have been praying because I want to be delivered. I have also been praying and reciting the verse about Yahshua desiring to heal someone. The guy asked Him if he desired to heal him and Yahshua said, "I desire it." I know that the answer will come as it did before. 

Numbers 6:24-26 

I came across the word Mina. This name is significant to me. I googled Mina in Hebrew. Root word is Maneh. It's spelled Mem, Nun, Hey. That's a picture of the seed being washed by the water and the indwelling Ruach HaKodesh coming to dwell in us. Our spirit's yield to His.